If you've landed here, I suspect you're one of those people who is "on a journey". Some of you may have just begun, others may be (like me) twenty or more years down the line. But the important point is this - that we're all on this journey together. Check out my Blog called The Journey.
Hi, and thanks for visiting.
You may already know that I am passionate about what I call Holistic Intelligence, which I define as "reclaiming, maximising and consciously directing all the energy at your disposal to create the life you want". That passion has led me to live my life through the lens of a deep awareness of my own energy, and how it is manifesting in each day. It also led me to move from Ireland to the South of France, in the Dordogne, an area the size of Ireland, but covered 65% in forest. It's magical !
One of the many things I've discovered over the years, is this - when I remain energetically centered, co-operating with my intuition, and listening to my heart, profound things start to happen, almost as if by magic! The sweetest part is that these profound things gradually become your "normal". My "normal" now includes ... Deep Peace. Lots of energy. Zero Drama. Daily Yoga. Daily Meditation and Prayer. Lots of guilt-free pleasure! Tons of fun. Bouts of foolishness! Weekly Tantra Time with my incredible partner, Jenny. Creativity. Growing lots of our own food, and some fruit too. Eating organic food. Enjoying good wine and good whisky. Reading. Playing my guitar(s). Making music with others. Writing. Etc.
My life is absolutely wonderful about 95% of the time, because I've chosen the life I lead. I choose it all, even if, in the past, it was sometimes an unconscious choice. But each day I learn more about myself energetically - where I'm stuck, what my patterns are, the ways that fear still gets into my mind, how to be vulnerable and strong at the same time. Sure, I made and still make, "mistakes" along the way - but guess what? That's ok. That's Holistic Intelligence. It all belongs.
One of the things I believe very deeply is this - that the reason for me being on this planet, or my purpose if you like - is to evolve. Emotionally. Mentally. Spiritually. Creatively. Intuitively. It's your purpose too - to evolve beyond what you were, and to continuously create your future from your present. I wrote about all of that in much more detail in my first book, The Possibility Exists. Check it out on Amazon.
Enough about me - How are you? How is your life? Are you evolving? Are you fulfilled, peaceful, contented? Is there something missing? Does fear still hold you back? Do you still procrastinate and ruminate too much? If so, I sincerely hope that I can be of service in some way via this website. Maybe you'll find a blog that inspires you, a video that gives you some clarity, a paragraph in my book that speaks to you. Maybe you'll engage with me via my online course or in person someday.
Whether you do or not, please know this before you go - THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU! You can read my blog about it here. I send you deep blessings on your journey. I hope it unfolds beautifully as you follow your inner wisdom, and of course, your heart.
IN MY EARLY THIRTIES I began to "wake up". It took a lot to get through my thick skin, or, to put it more bluntly, and honestly - I was "cracked open!"
Here's a few of the events that caused me to grow up, wise up, and eventually - wake up!
a motorcycle accident - where I had the tunnel EXPERIENCE OF NEAR-DEATH
a complete psychological MELTDOWN due to stress
separation, divorce and single parenthood
- all of which left me questioning myuself and everything I believed in
an incredibly powerful enlightenment experience
a period in INTENSIVE CARE
-when I didn't know if I would survive
You can read all about my experiences and learnings in "The Possibility Exists."
When I finally learned to stop seeking for "happiness" outside myself, my real journey began. After those serious wake-up calls, I began to be curious about my patterns and I started to question my beliefs.
What was the use of a high IQ if I didn't feel happy?
Was it intelligent to think so negatively about myself?
Why was I cut off from my heart?
Why did I do things just to make people like me?
Why did I think badly about my own body?
Was it intelligent to think I was bad and defective in some way?
What was I afraid of when I avoided conflict?
Was it intelligent to stay in a relationship which wasn't good for me?
Looking back now, over 20 years later, it all seems strangely surreal, as if I'm looking back at a different person in a different life. Back then I was a successful businessman with a great life - according to many people! I had read lots of self-help books and understood the power of positive habits and how to "succeed".
The truth, however, was that I lived inside a cocooned idea of who I was - and the big revelation for me was realising how much I had allowed myself to be shaped by others, influenced by others, and alwasy oversensitive to the opinion of others. I didn't know "ME" at all. I had no deep connection to my true self. While I had a strong self-image, that's all it was - a self-image - or an "image of self" if you like. It certainly wasn't the real me!
I had become a master at pretence, hiding my fears and low self-esteem behind a projected outer layer of confidence. My passive-aggressive personality was also hidden away, buried by the internalised belief from my childhood programming: "I don't do conflict - because I'm a good person." I showed everyone how happy I was - and how sure I was of myself and my place in the world. It was too scary and vulnerable to let people see what was really going on.
Listening to that voice was the best thing I've ever done. It was that inner voice that we all have. It whispers things you know to be true, but you ignore them. In my case, it took me by the hand and dragged me, coaxed me, little by little, into having an honest look at myself.
And so I learned all about my defense mechanisms, my projections and my shadow. I learned how to hold - and how to let go. I learned how to set healthy boundaries. I learned to not blame others for being themselves.
I learned to notice all the energy I was wasting and then I learned how to reclaim it. I learned how to feel all my emotions unconditionally because they were mine. Eventually I found everything I wanted – inside. It was so strange to realize that there was nothing wrong with me. I was enough!
After many years of counselling, workshops, retreats, healing, psychotherapy and so on, I - finally - found Me. The Authentic Me. The Powerful Me. The Creative Me. The Passionate Me. The Gentle Me. The Fearful Me - and The Fearless Me! Finally, I was "coming home" to myself, to my centre. These days - thanks to my daily practices - I find myself more and more centered, entering each day with an open mind and an undefended heart.
Many teachers and courageous souls have accompanied me to this point in my life. Thank you all for the wisdom and support you shared with me. Thanks too, to all of those who disagreed with me and took issue with me, and brought me to my edges. You have been great teachers too!
These days, I'm a little wiser too. I have more fun. I create more. I eat incredibly healthy organic food. I still enjoy running, yoga, meditation, singing, playing my guitars - and a glass of wine and a good boogie!
My passion is still to inspire people to be emotionally open, non-attached to their thinking, physically healthy, and fully connected to their own unique spirit.
Check out what i offer on the different pages of this website.